Phobic Waters Run Deep

So here's the thing. I have acid reflux. I've had it for about a month. I didn't know what it was at first, but last weekend it got so bad that I went to the emergency room and found out. Anyway, I was given Mylanta and a prescription for Protonix, an acid reducer. Now I may have mentioned this before but I'm a medicine phobic. Its bad. Its very bad. I can't take anything. The Mylanta was a stretch. The only reason I was able to take it was because I was in the hospital when they gave me my first serving and I survived. I've been taking it for a week now but it just takes the edge off the acid feeling in my throat, chest and back. I've had the Protonix for a week and haven't gotten up the courage to put one of the damned things in my mouth. So tonight, after suffering needlessly for a week, I took one. Its only been about 5 minutes. I'm trying not to freak out about it. Its going to be a long night, though. To give you an idea how phobic I am of not just afraid of meds but of anything that goes into my body. We have a water cooler in our house. I can only drink water from that cooler, and if a new bottle goes in, I have to wait until other people have safely drank from it before I can comfortably drink from it. Well, its needed replacing since Monday, so I've started drinking water from the hospital cafeteria since I work in the hospital. Now that water is safe. Knowing that I was going to have to take this pill, and knowing that I had to take it with water, I made a special trip to the hospital to get this water! So here I sit, my special water beside me, waiting for the pill to take effect. Yes, I cried when I took it. I still feel like crying but it makes the acid feeling in my throat even worse. But I cleaned my house this week, so the view from where I sit in my hell is lovely.